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Thursday, December 30th, 2004
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8:51 pm - Its been a long time
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| Sunday, January 25th, 2004
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9:54 pm - This Weekend
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This weekend was different than any other weekend. i met a gurl and i stay in her room and watch movies all nite. i didnt leave until 4 in the morning, is that weird. Also the second craziest thing is this gurl i met is Name Steph. But she not crazy like the ex. So i'm taking everything slow and see what happen between us. Right now happier then i ever been this semester.
Dion
current mood:  happy
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| Sunday, October 19th, 2003
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11:30 pm - college
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i don't even remember the last time i wrote in this journal. it been a long time.......(sigh). COLLEGE is awesome and so r the people too. last nite i even seen a goat on light street, now that crazy(i saw it before i started to drink). after seeing that i was enlighten. well goodnite
current mood: happy
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| Monday, March 10th, 2003
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10:26 pm - The Rollercoaster
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what is going on with me, life is not looking good right now. I have a ex girlfriend who cant see the stupid picture, i have friends that are basically ignoring me, my belief are disappearing and another girl playing with my heart. when will this crazy ride end, right now it feel like it will never. Honestly who cares? probably on one does, no one does. I sit in my room wondering will i go down into a downward spiral or reach the crazy loopy loop next. MY heart is hurting, no one care or seem to pay attention, but when they have a problem. let ask dion what to do? i have no more answers. i'm now only reduce to listening to music that remind how i have it bad. maybe college is the place to get away from the old and started over. every nite seem sleepless and hopeless wondering if the God, I pray to every nite is even up there or even care for me. Trying to be strong but i cant it eating at me slowly.
My X is mad cuz i'm not going to the prom, she is the stupid b**** and i have to mean to she for her dumbass can understand. This other girl who play with my heart, i am sick and tired of waiting of taking this shit from u, it hurt me in inside. but will i ever learn ..no.... i still wait for u...this roller coaster has cost me so much pain, but i cant get out because i 'm trap in it and i need someone to help me.
current mood: hopeless
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| Thursday, January 16th, 2003
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10:27 pm - happy
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today was another 2 hr talk on the phone between steph and me. i like her so much, we have the best talks. this saturday R going out but i dont know where to go. also today i injury one of my calf in practice, so i may not bbe able to run this saturday. i'm so happy :)
current mood: happy
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| Tuesday, January 7th, 2003
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9:06 pm - Will Friday Ever Come
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What makes Friday so special, better than any other day. could it be Gymnastic is starting this friday. Or is it because it the day before my track meet. It either, friday will be the day when i officially ask out my future Girl Friend. Every nite it has been so hard to sleep, waiting until friday to come and trying to think where to just her during our little outing friday. Steph and me go back to 10th when we went to the dance together because she like me, i didnt want to go with her a first because i like her friend more. Now 2 year after not seeing since then, we went on a date on the 26 of dec, and after two 2 hr phone call. so friday is the day, that everyone will be waiting for......
current mood:  hyper
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| Thursday, December 12th, 2002
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10:45 pm - L-O-V-E
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L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
current mood:  loved
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| Thursday, November 28th, 2002
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9:37 pm - Each Day
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During these two weeks i had been feeling a void in my heart. I felt I was missing a part of me and my anger was trying to patch it up and cover it. So I could forget, but I couldnt, it was to vast and it was hurting me each day. It took me until today, to let go of this anger and to undo this hole in my heart. Today the person who meant so much to me until these couple of weeks, said happy thankgiving and sorry for the way i have been treating you. i wanted to said something mean, and tell her to go away but i couldnt. As i sat there, wondering and confuse. i couldnt be mean but two passage came to my mind. Matthew 18:21-22 Then Peter came up and said to him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven. and Luke 17:3 Take heed to yourselves; if your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him; and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, and says, I repent, you must forgive him. I finally realize that everyone deserved a another chance no matter what because what if we are in the same boat? i told her happy thankgiving and forgave her. In these weeks i learn more about myself and the missing part of me is to be found right now.
current mood: pleased
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| Thursday, November 21st, 2002
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10:23 pm - There's No Train!!
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Today was a very interesting day, during our run the whole boys distances running almost die. You can say we almost caught the train. our story began when i decided to lead the group, it seem like a good idea in the BEGINNINg. As we ran down ross rd, we turn into the park and through wood into the silks, what we call the desert (because it look like one. We always ran there since i have a freshman, it like tradition. so as we traveled we found ur self near the train track that run cross 202 and up pass my house. when we got to the track we went left instead of right that would take us cross 202 and follow the track to brigdeport. like we always have since i have freshman. as we ran long the track criag ask "do u think the train will come". i told he "no the train havent run throu here in a long time." craig said "it look like they re-did the tracks." i said nah. so we kept running , then we heard a noise that sound like a train, then i say nah that just a tractor-trailer. so when kept on running. Then we came to the little bridge, we walk careful a cross it, becuase under us u can see the road under us . after we got about 150 m from the little brigde i saw a red light then a white light. i brought to everyone attention "i think that a train" soon enough after i said that we heard the horn. i was out me and criag sprinted back to the brigde. we ran like we stole something, it was crazy. then as we got to the bridge, we went under it to get to the road so we can get back to the school. this story we can ever tell ur coach until we graduate.
current mood: shocked
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| Wednesday, November 20th, 2002
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10:04 pm
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Today has been a great day for me, i feel great and i dont feel any stress at all. Not talking to people make me mad, made me feel good. Also track practice was fun for once in my life. i really have nothing else to talk about
Dion
current mood: happy
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| Monday, November 18th, 2002
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9:09 pm - A change for the better
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Today is a new beginning for me. As T. S. Eliot from the Four Quartets put it "What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from." I realized today that having friends is a sign of weakness and that you can trust nobody. All though history, there are stories of friends betraying each other. A great example comes from Caesar, who was betrayed by his best friend Brutus who stabbed him in the back. Another example is Jesus, whom Judus betrayed for money, sending Christ to his death. The worst part was that the rest of his disciples fled, while others denied him. These are great friends to have when you're in trouble.
Maya Angelou says "If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain." She is absolutely right, that what I'm going to do. These past couples of week I have been called mean, stupid, and a jerk. My supposed friends have criticized me for the last time. I'm sick and tired of being nice and helping people out by giving them rides, even though these people are rude and ungrateful. These people make me sick...People who use me because I don't said no...People who use me because I try to help out...People who are mean to me. These people will get no respect from me at all; basically I will treat you like crap back, just as you have to me. Also if you are one of these people reading this and your wondering if I'm one of these people Dion is talking about well here a list of to find out:
- Dion has stopped talking to me suddenly
- Dion has been constantly mean to me lately
- Dion says, "I don't like you" he meant it
- Or if Dion gives you the finger
- Dion said I hate you
- If you have to ask me I’m talking you your on this list
- I’m stupid and I realize when he said “I don’t like you” he meant it
If one or all these apply I don’t like you, this list may be updated later.
Thank you, for your time
Dion
current mood:  irritated
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| Tuesday, September 24th, 2002
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10:39 pm
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On the long drive today from another carboload(small party were the xc team alot of carbohydrate a day before the meet) i started to feel a little sad because of the memory of the girl who broke my heart twice. on my drive i wonder how can i be sad tomorrow is a fun day or it could be the best day of my life. friends try to cheer me up but they dont really understnad and i just want that special someone. that i can talk to or call at a weird time to talk to or just there when i'm sad. ...........
gotta stay strong no matter what!!!! also XC rules
current mood:  restless
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| Sunday, August 4th, 2002
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1:34 am - Camp
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i been spending most my summer at thus christian camp. i been up there for almost 6 week. then i decide to come home for 2 week. it was so weird being home and going back to work, it was like i didnt know anyone. i felt so out of place, how can u feel out of place at home? all week long i found myself referring to christian camp it was like i was from some movie - "one time at christian camp".
during the 6 weeks i was here i wanted to go home, now when i got home i wanted to go back. some people started getting on my nerve all they did was bother me and i wish they just left me alone. the gymnastic show came it was so much fun minus getting hit in the balls at the end of the show.
now i'm back at camp and i hope it good like the other weeks i was here and the camper are good
current mood: bored
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| Thursday, January 17th, 2002
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9:30 pm - Life
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this is the first time i wrote in my journal i n a long time. pretty cool isnt !!! right now i'm listen to MJ new CD. i really dont know what to write
i g2g i'lll write tomorrow
current mood:  crazy
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| Wednesday, July 25th, 2001
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11:17 pm
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it feel like forever since I wrote in this journal . this summer so far I've been running, working and working. I feel like I'm getting sick from the heat, working and running. I felt like I was gonna died these couple days I couldn't walk or coach it seem like. but I'm trying to hang in, I'm tryin also to have a positive at work sometime it seem that I'm not. I gotta stay strong.
current mood:  tired
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| Monday, May 14th, 2001
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9:16 pm
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track district is 4 days away and i'm so happy. this is my 2nd time going and it going to be fun. also i'm pretty bore and i have noting to talk about.
current mood:  bouncy
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| Monday, April 23rd, 2001
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9:31 pm - what do i do
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these couple days i didn't know what to write about, also because i got in a bike accident last week so it hard to type. but let get to the point there a girl i like, but i can't tell her how i feel. because it always goes bad if i tell the person if i like them. i dont know what to do i ask some of my friend what to do, and i am so confuse. well i g2g bye bye
Dion
current mood:  confused
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| Friday, March 30th, 2001
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10:50 pm - To be or not
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Is track for me? i dunno any more. Everytime i run my knee started hurting more and more. Next year is going to be a big decision for me, "do i really want to run X-C,winter, spring track?" Doing track during my freshman yr was awesome, i love and i would die for this sport, but now i lost the drive i had last yr. My time r slow and i don't care about running any more, i lost my confidence in winning. all the time people tease me about my time, make me hate track more and more. no one really know how i feel and i try talking about no one understands. maybe i should stop running and give up and try a new sport.
i don't know any more.
current mood:  drained
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| Wednesday, March 21st, 2001
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8:50 pm
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today practice was the best practice i ever ever had in my life. even though i can't swim, i still had fun in the pool. today mike and i talk to mr no so we can race against each other friday. which i will win. also mikey is a good driver, all he has to do is follow the speed limit in the school zone. if any one don't know what i'm talkin about don't asks. well i g2g
dion
current mood: giggly
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| Saturday, March 17th, 2001
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11:40 pm - Do I Know Her
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Sometime u think u know ur friend really very but ur wrong the person is totally different, everything is totally different about them. i'm so confuse about life right now, i thought that two people who like each other and have a lot in common will be together but i was wrong it just a children dream. i ask my friend for advice and they all same thing it not right dion for u to go through that problem but i don't know what to do. life is full of decision and i don't want to make the wrong one.
Dion
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current mood: confused
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